Happy solar eclipse! It feels so fitting I would be looking back on this journal entry from last year’s New Moon in Aries, as I continue to work with the maiden-mother-crone archetype. Once again, the magic of the synchronicities and wisdom of the tarot were so reassuring during a time that felt so in limbo.
March 21, 2023
For my first Ostara, I am proud to have brought a bit more awareness to it all. I was working out as the Sun shifted into Aries at 5:24pm, and I baked a quiche — eggs and fresh fruits and vegetables are symbols of this time, a transition to fresh starts, rebirth, and more light. So I baked (a comfort activity), but I baked something nourishing, fresh, and healthy.
Now, and particularly today with the New Moon so close to Ostara, is a time to reflect on what we are initiating with this fresh start. If the last few months are any indication, I believe my soul curriculum this year is the transition from Maiden to Mother.
I conceived in January, found out in February, and miscarried in March. In April, we will start trying to conceive again. And along the way, I’m learning so much about what this transition means.
First, it’s not just about having a baby. Though I feel like being pregnant, if only for a brief period of time, and having a miscarriage has helped me earn some mama stripes and plant me more firmly in this identity. The Mother archetype is more than fertility and having one’s own children. It’s about embodying a more nurturing, wise version of yourself. Integrating what I learned as maiden and sharpening my worldview, and stepping more powerfully into how I show up in this world. I am becoming better and better about how I nurture myself and the people I love. I am grounding myself in deep reflection and learning and figuring out my spiritual beliefs. I have a wiser view on what health and a good life means. I have perspective, that is only gained through time and experience as my Maiden form.
From Maiden to Mother, I do look forward to growing our family. But I also look forward to growing the confidence to stand more firmly in my beliefs and philosophies. To share openly and take myself (and my professional abilities, too) more seriously. I look forward to refining my personal style and lifestyle habits. I look forward to approaching my education and learning in a more personalized way, on my terms. I look forward to finding new authentic ways of having fun and enjoying myself — an evolving taste in media, conversation, and culture. I look forward to pursuing bigger goals as showcases of all I’ve learned: writing, yoga teacher training, running a next-gen business.
As Mother, there is license to unapologetically thrive. And I’m excited to explore more what this archetype means and what is in store on this journey.
That day, I ended my journaling and Ostara exercises by pulling a card: the Queen of Pentacles.
“The magic of fertility, growth and life, the Queen sits with a large pentacle in her lap, a rabbit at her feet symbolizing fecundity and magic. The Queen is similar to the Empress as she is receptive and knows how to weave and work the magic of nature’s gardens.” —Cat Cabral of Moonage Magic
Prosperity and fertility, a working parent. Tending masterfully to home, work, family. Calm, resourceful, practical.
From Maiden to Mother indeed 🤍